Children's Hospitals Suck

I am tired of hanging out in children's hospitals. When we were younger and Spencer, then Jessica got sick, we were stronger then. Now it just seems so heavy. Not that what we were going through then wasn't heavy. It was. We just seemed in a daze and powered through it, doing what we had to do, developing coping strategies and relying on our friends and family. Now, in coping with Lauren's brain surgery, we know what to do, how to handle it, we just don't have the energy we used to.

The Continuum Project

Did you ever spend a lot of time with either of your parents discussing their past? What made them who they are? What lessons they learned? How it influenced their lives?

If you did, or if they tried to tell you, did you listen?

I want my children to know who I am. Why I am. How I became what I am. Not because I am so important, but because I want them to know who they are, why they are, and how they became who they are. Not to feel alone.

I will try to be as truthful as I can be. I feel that that is the only way it can be meaningful and authentic. Some things will be ugly, some things will hurt. I can only hope that the common string of humanity will be there, to anchor each of us.